Well ya'll, looks like the journey is over. I've been to the doctors office every other day for the last 2 weeks, had a couple dozen tests and I'm healthy as a horse. Apparently, my problem is all stress/anxiety/depression related. Hard to believe, I know. The doctor says if I eliminate the source of my stress, I will feel much better. So, if I stay here on this wonderful farm I've worked my ass off on, making it produce for me, I will keep feeling like I do and eventually it will adversely affect my health. Since I don't make near enough money to keep the bills paid here on my own, I will be selling off all my animals(which absolutely kills me and makes me more depressed), filing for divorce( that will fix all my health problems) and leaving here to find a new path for my future.
I don't have a real plan worked out yet. It's kind of hard to work something out when you have nothing to work with. Hopefully, I can get a decent price for the animals and at least give myself something to move on with. I just can't keep fighting a losing battle when I'm constantly dragged down by the disrespect, lies and stupidity of someone who is supposed to be my life partner.
So, it's the end of this journey. All I can do is work on starting another one down the road...
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